nanaaa

now, whats the next step then.

2011-05-22T21:10:00.001+08:00

“To be loved. To know that there is someone out there who would give their all to only be with you, someone more than willing to share their world with you. Someone who will take your hand and hold it, and never ever would they let it go, never would they want to let you go. Someone who holds you in their arms, someone who tells you he’s holding his whole entire world there at that very moment. A person who will love you with their all. To love and be loved, that is something I wish for.”

restart of life :)

2011-05-14T22:55:00.003+08:00

annyeong!

its been way to long, haha, right?
now its gonna be in mid 2011 already. that makes around a year of not updating.
and i doubt my friends will still read this blog of mine but oh well, i'll still blog for my sake! :)
cause i've been itching to write up some also.

a quick update:
found a job, yes finally, after like few months of searching.
how isit? well, so far im happy with it.
the people there are fun, thank god. haha, but it's only been a month.
however i feel like i've been there a long time. haha
i've yet to plan my future,but as time to come hopefully i have something in mind.

lastly, i hope that someone is doing well.
even if we aren't talking anymore. just hope the best for him.

im loving the way it feels
but if it drags, im dead meat.

somehow lost in the way.

2010-07-24T23:43:00.003+08:00

and sooo, i have been busy MIA-ing from this blog.
really dont see quite the need to update it very much therefore once a while i guess it okay.

guess tumblr-ing pretty much keep me away from stuffs. hehs.

been designing website while im mia, but now.

i dont really know, somehow i didnt have the drive or passion i had in it.

maybe its lost, or maybe i simply gave up.

but somehow, i know a part of me wants to design.

no confidence, no creativity, no variety of idea, i would say to myself.

hence i DO have alot of brushing up to do.

cause i know, now, i really need to be serious. to find that drive.

to be happy to do what i want, eventho that wont be the happiest thing that i wanna do.

but if whatever you want doesnt goes as plan, use the backup.

was once an ambition person, but some how its gone.

whether if i can find it back. its entirely up to me now.

shall be true and say imissyou!

2010-05-21T11:02:00.001+08:00

i miss you. i miss your eyes.

i miss the way you look at me.

i miss the way you smile.

i miss the way you can make me laugh, laugh until my face hurts.

i miss the way you look at the world and things you say.

i miss the way you hug me and rub my back.

i miss the feeling of my head on you shoulder and i miss snuggling tight.

i miss the way you sigh and the sound of your heartbeat.

i miss that tension when we sit next to each other or when we stand close together.

i miss the way you make my heart skip beats when meet you.

i miss your laugh and the sound of your voice.

i miss the littlethings and the big things but basically i miss being near you.

i miss you a.

Some people are still finding the one, some people are choosing the wrong ones...

And me?

I have you..

And that's more than I ever asked for :)

yes, 365 days ♥

2010-05-07T00:46:00.002+08:00

“You ask me why I like you, and it’s really something I can’t put into words.

Maybe it's because of how you think eventho you're more cynical now. lol.

Maybe it’s because you make me happy most of the time.

Maybe it’s because you know how to keep a conversation with me.

Maybe it’s because you got me thinking about you before I go to sleep, and after I wake up.

Maybe it’s because I can be myself around you.

Maybe it’s because you bring the best out of me.

Maybe it’s because I can never get enough of you.

Maybe it’s just because your just being yourself."

A boy who will still give time to his friends.

I want a boy who’s enjoyable to look at, he doesn’t have to be gorgeous.

I just want someone who I can pay attention to.

Someone who doesn’t do everything I ask,

but when it comes to something important I can count on him to be there.

Someone who I don’t feel threatened by.

A boy who I can just sit with. I don’t need the whole fairytale deal;

I just want to feel comfortable.

She’s the girl that has a few best friends,

the girl that laughs the hardest at her own jokes.

She’s the girl that always punch you.

She's the girl that loves your hugs.

She’s the girl who will never leave your side when you need her,

the girl who will go out of her way to cheer you up.

She’s the girl who says she isn’t ticklish, but really is.

She’s the girl who will not give up on you if she really believes in you.

She’s the girl who believes in loving somebody forever.

andi: No one ever made me feel like how you make me feel towards anyone,

therefore i know you are special to me.

ana is here always, by your side.

happy one year anniversary awak! ♥ :)

a. is a's sunshine.

and no, im your sunshine :)

plan planning planned.

2010-05-05T09:57:00.002+08:00

okay so my mom's gonna admit today yet again.

for the 6th cycle, left with two more to go!

and insyaallah she'll be fine (:

and soo, i keep changing my plans for this saturday.

hahah, but gonna make a contingency plan incase something happen.

*cross fingers*, pray hard. lol.

yet to finalise it, but hoping that it will be great.

BUT its not something fanciful tho. haha.

oh wells, let's just see.

:) tooodles.

oh where oh where can i find money.

2010-05-01T00:16:00.002+08:00

sooooooooooooo,

I went to research on forensic studies at san francisco.

was not a shock to know the estimated price a year to study there.

About 25k, and yes, it's not in sing dollars yet.

sooo, now I'm thinking how long am I suppose to have that kind of money.

is there a better option for me. I don't know. yet to talk to nisa about this.

just wait and see.

OH! and singapore is getting more of nothing to do.

Go out either, you shop or watch movie.

isn't there anything exciting to do already.

boooo, boring.

the future

2010-04-29T00:40:00.003+08:00

and yes, i changed skin.

a clean yet simple :)

a quick update:

momsy back home after like 21days in hospital.

she gonna be in again on 5may, hopefully its a fast chemo.

thank you those who were concern :)

well, right now, I was really thinking on what to do.

as I want to know what I want to do for life, for a career.

after thinking about it awhile, I will go ahead and do it.

I'm gonna research all the aspects and education for becoming a forensic.

all I know is that, ever since secondary, I've always love biology.

Getting excited and having fun during bio class, always getting A's for biology.

never did i flunk or did poorly. so I decided that I would love biology to be part of my career.

It's settled. But there's stuff I still need to rethink about. about the future plannings.

5-7 years down the road. my mom, dad.

and obviously money and marriage(haha, shuttup)

I'm not gonna let my dad become an obstacle now.

Really, back then I didn't even thought of going ITE bio course and go to poly biomed.

It would have been easier I guess rather than taking IT course just to have a diploma.

sigh, like my sis say we are too good children to our parents.

we didn't manage to have enough experience to be mature like our age.

decisions, thinking, perspective and others. and I'll hit 22 soon. sadly.

I still feel that something is holding me back from my decisions.

not sure, but I know I will have the support of it.

just thinking of how long it will take. its kinda hard.

nevermind, do my research first then can plan ahead.

yeap, I'm sure this is what I want. Gonna U turn and head to my original plan.

and I do hope I'm right.

it's pretty late, think I will hit the bed then.

friends out there, who always think I'm MIA. hahah

here's an update of me. and a long one. hehs.

and OH! weather please be kind any sooner, i want to stargaze :)

Grey's Anatomy

2010-04-25T17:22:00.002+08:00

I didnt know why grey's anatomy drama really gets to me.

haha, each individual life, be it family, career, marriage or love.

it does really happen in real life.

like e.g, seeing a couple whereby one is willing to commit and move forward,

while the other is afraid, and scared and is just moving backwards.

to see the person in pain and misery, it kinda gets to me that yes, it saddening.

and i somehow understand now, how a person feels when it comes to that.

it gets pretty tiring and eventually will just give up in each other.

am i right? and its sad to see that happen, really.

conveying feelings to words is never really my forte.

you can only feel what i really feel, either with my reaction or expression.

or if i tell you that im not okay. but thats rare.

if you know me that well, you should know thats pretty much my answer to everything.

and maybe i am slow in learning and changing stuffs, but i am trying.

i know that i am.

no idea why im writing random stuffs, just that the drama,

in a way you learn things in life. and it really gets me, even if its just a drama.

like they say, life is short, and it sucks. it do.

uhh, i miss blogging.

2010-04-20T22:43:00.002+08:00

I know that people are different. I know that not everyone can handle a long distance relationship. Some people actually need the affection. They need the dates, hang outs, kissing, cuddling, holding hands, sex, etc etc. But when you come across someone who you happen to be interested in, who you start to develop feelings for, who ends up meaning a lot to you, who stands out from the rest, none of that should matter much. I’ve seen so many people letting go of their significant other because of the distance. By doing so, it’s like you’re telling the other person that they’re not worth the wait and that they’re now worth the trouble. It’s extremely difficult finding a good girl/guy nowadays. So when you find someone good, but the distance is a huge issue, please think about it all before you let them go. They won’t be just another girl or guy to you. Instead ,they’ll be the one that got away. You know why? Because you let something so little get in between you and someone that means so much to you. But if you happen to decide to not let that person go, you better put it all on lock. Don’t let anything get in between you two. Especially not distance.

Remember: Distance isn’t an issue unless you make it one.

*read it somewhere (:

2010-04-09T22:57:00.001+08:00

why do i have to be introvert?

sigh.

a friend said im nice to talk to.

thanks (:

2010-04-08T00:20:00.002+08:00

i'll aim to do what i want.

but i think it will take me more than 5-7 yrs.

till im married. i'll prolly still halfway to achieving it.

but its okay right?

for a moment i miss mom.

damn i feel hungry now. sigh.

2010-03-12T22:48:00.002+08:00

been wanting to bloggg,

hell yeah i miss blogging!

but it seems dead, do my readers not read anymore?

hahaha.

anyhooos, found this qoute by MARILYN MONROE.

"you'll nvr find your soul mate or that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. just because you fail once doesnt mean you're gonna fail at everything. keep trying, hold on and always always believe in yourself, because it you dont then who will. so keep your head high, keep your chin up and most importantly,keep smiling, because life's a beautiful thing and there's so much to smile about."

after reading that, i felt better abit.

im determined everything's gonna be fine.

it will be (:

had a really great meet up with bestie yest.

she's forever so sweet, chatted alot.

bullied her more. rofl, oh how i miss that.

but somehow, i couldnt agree more to what she said.

hmm, somehow i didnt want to.

anddd she's got something in her sleeve for me.

i wonder what she is doing. hehs.

thank you, arigato, xie xie, terima kasih (:

feeling very sleepy nowadays, have no freaking idea.

i think i said the word fck many times to maria.

sorry. lol.

okay! BYE! done blogging.

2010-02-18T21:08:00.001+08:00

wanted to change blogskin but change my mind.

heee.

im bored at home.

but this are just the minor sacrifices i have to do.

im always looking forward to SATURDAY! (:

my freee day.roflroflrofl.

baby you've got me love drunk.

2010-01-17T01:37:00.002+08:00

MOMSY IS BACK HOME!
:)))))))))

i miss that boy, whom i have so manny nameeees for him.
LOL! now, its little mischievous devil :)
because he is.. but im meaner. rofl
eh, at least i know that i am mean. hehehe.
im tired as hell now lohhh..

me went for interview on fri.
dont know if i got the job, hopefully monday educare will call me.
julya please call! ahaha :)
3 schs and only one called down for interview,pls let me in.
on the same day, boyfriend went for the test and interview.
AND got the course at NYP, digital media(animations)
happy for him, as i know he wanted it so badly..
but i have full confidence in him, as he is talented :)
darling, your drawings are superb kay :)
now study hard and do your best.

so many things i wanna rant, so many things happen.
but sometimes things are meant to be kept silent..
sigh..so many cravings..so many stuffs..
to be honest..nothing. bye.

2010-01-06T01:51:00.002+08:00

i wish things to be back to normal.
im not used to the formality we are having now ):
its hard, i guess. im not sure..lets just see how it goes.

i miss mom, i miss her cooking.
i miss her peeking thru our room when she walks.
i miss talking with her at night on her bed.
):

alot of unexpected things happen in 2010.
thanks eh. sigh.

take me to london and i'll marry you. lol

2009-12-30T23:39:00.003+08:00

well its sure that time really move very fast.

jobless, gah. anw, end of dec, end of 2009.

2010, have more luck please. hehs.

resolution, none. not excited,rather not looking forward.

nth can compare to having you.

i assure you.

sorry for wrong doings to everyone.

take care and have a nice day tml :)

2009-11-29T01:01:00.000+08:00

The one who makes me smile...
The one who deserves my attention..
The one who always makes me happy..
The one who always makes me feel loved..
The one who makes me cry..
The one who always makes me feel special..
The one who always give in to me sometimes..
The one who makes me laugh..
The one who always gives me butterflies..
The one who i cannot live without..
The one who always msg me every single day..
The one who snuggles with me..
The one who never fails to appreciate me..
The one who always likes to hug me..
The one who never fails to ask how's my day..
The one who made me realise what love is..
The one who gave me a true meaning for love..
The one who made me fall in love again..
The one who means the world to me..
The one who i never wanna lose..
The one who makes me feel special and loved every single time..
The one who is always so cute and doesnt have to step cute..
The one who i love to snuggle with..
The one who always blame himself even though i'm at fault.
The one who can make me go crazy if he ignores me.
The one who melts me everytime he starts being sweet..
The one who keep apologising even if there's nothing just to prevent any fights..
The one who always hugs me from the back..
The one who always sing and strums..
The one who likes to draww..
The one who is mine now and will always be mine..
The one who i love too much, i swear..
The one i'll never let go, ever, for like ever..

:)

2009-11-27T19:10:00.001+08:00

haha, one funny thing when i convo with zee,

is our display picture.. in mine, his dp is looking at mine.

and at his convo, my dp is looking at his. rofl, i find that cool :)

random post!

2009-11-26T23:33:00.004+08:00

sorry if I cant be there for outings or birthdays for now..

im having a pretty tight situation..

so i'll cya all soon when im doing okay (:

i apologise my dear excos.

love,nana

2009-11-19T16:13:00.001+08:00

so what am i doing on this fine, cold rainy weather..
yes, im slacking off at home, watching Julie and Julia,
hah, and i just stone while writing this,
a habit of mine which i can never let it go.

can singapore arts festival just call me already.
you gave me hope when you emailed me back to give my resume
but then no news.
):

it sucks~
yes, waiting for jobs to call you.
when you know you applied 22 jobs application and nothing.
is there something wrong with my resume? sigh.

but overall, i have to be more optimistic about it and i am (:
im sure some will call one day, all i have to do is wait.
waiting is a killer. for now, im going to do my everyday routine life.
i just hope im doing the right thing, finding a job i want,
rather than just taking the job coz i have no choice.
or that because i need a job badly now.

as for now, im leaving starrhopes for a while,
expect a lil cob webs and dust around here,
till something exciting or new things came along, or maybe year 2010.
rofl. but, i'll still be tweeting for sure (:

2009-11-09T13:32:00.003+08:00

hoho! its been quite a while since i step in here.
well, now, its about the same..
and i guess, i've lost some friends. okay not some, a friend.
shurgs, whenever i think, why does it have to be like this.
finding hard to talk, understand,meet up, when its easy..
and why i am always doing stuffs to make the friendship work.
why do i always make the effort to mend and make it work.
it takes two hand to clap, and i cant see any effort from you.
shrugs.. its tough. as least i make the effort to ask abt you.
w.

not good with jobs lately, relinet have yet to call me back abt my job.
everyone's starting job alr.
even boyf, which im glad and happy so he doesnt have to rot!
lol! i cant even count how many jobs i applied, but im hoping they will call soon.
please, i will die. hahaha. for those wondering, im doing great cept for the job thingy.
lol! been going out alot recenlty,but now shld be not. rofl.

i think what matters now most is that,
i still have my loved ones with me.
my friends are still kept dearly in my heart.
no matter how far they are.
you guys should know that right. (:

2009-10-21T20:45:00.001+08:00

headache,
heavy head,
droppy eyes,
and a mind wandering somewhere else.

end.

2009-10-12T01:30:00.001+08:00

its just weird that whenever i want to blog.
it seems like im blanked out of blogging, right?
hahaha. and im guessing that i have lost touch in blogging.
i guess tweeting for me now is more fun. less words. rofl!
oh and btw, i made myself a tumblr. yes yes, i know, i have many many blogs.
just wanted to try out and see how it feels like. hehs. no harm right.
i've yet to delete my mystery-paperhearts blog, my wordpress and etc.
maybe i'll just leave it incase i wanna rant stuffs there. :D

jobs been not looking good. haven receive calls from jobs i've applied.
worse come to worse, i'll just use the other plan.
because i think its time i get serious about this.
nyp job is still in processing. maybe i'll wait a few more days.
haha, yesterday i think among all my friends, im the one haven work yet.
as in a stable permanent job. not much eye opener in jobs also.
event management companies also haven get back to me.
i guess it takes about a month huh to get back. bleagh.
sometimes when i think if people have own family business to take over,
those rich people, their future set and everything, haha, now i rather have that life.
LOL! im just dreaming.

sooooo, thats about it, pretty much nothing going around starrhopes.
i wont be surprise if it will become a cobweb soon here. rofl.
but i'll try to keep it updated as much as possible.

OH! and one more funny thing.
im someone who always have no opinion.
really!! i realise, if someone were to ask about my comment.
i'll just dont bother to give an opinion.
hahaha.maybe it depends on what topic, but mostly, nothing.
im weirdd. and i, myself dont make sense to me sometimes.
hahah, shucks.

2009-10-11T03:02:00.002+08:00

i wanted to post something..
but. hahaha.

preettyy right. haha
(:

2009-10-03T01:35:00.004+08:00

"my darling sweet strawberry scent love"
you make me awww again, like you did in the past.
hahah, you are eff-ing sweet.
sayangg awak banyak2!

betul betul betul.
hanya kau.
:)

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ Mr A.

im not letting you go..
too bad, you're stuck with me.
hahah(:

2009-09-29T01:42:00.000+08:00

do you remember when there's a time you dont understand yourself.
well, i am now. im having a massive headache.
i feel like sleeping the whole day.
i dont have a single mood to do anything.
im playing this song over and over again.
im lying staring at the ceiling ever since.
dont know for eff-ing what shit.
just a bad day, for which i wouldnt want to go thru again.
my eyes are worn out, its been long since my water tap was on this long..
tml having dinner. i have to act myself with them.
dont wanna spoil anyone's mood.

and i always cry listening to this song, Love you till the end - The Pogues.
and that was the song im repeating.

i know i love you..
im just confused with almost all.
but yeah, i still love you, boy.

2009-09-26T21:20:00.001+08:00

Eleven Hints for LIFE:

It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return.But what is more painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let that person know how you feel.
A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to let go.
The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you’ve ever had.
It’s true that we don’t know what we’ve got until we lose it, but it’s also true that we don’t know what we’ve been missing until it arrives.
It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone-but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.
Don’t go for looks, they can deceive. Don’t go for wealth, even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright.
Dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go, be what you want to be. Because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do.
Always put yourself in the other’s shoes. If you feel that it hurts you, it probably hurts the person too.
A careless word may kindle strife. A cruel word may wreck a life. A timely word may level stress. But a loving word may heal and bless.
The happiest of people don’t necessarily have the best of everything they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.
Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, ends with a tear. When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die, you’re the one smiling and everyone around you is crying.

2009-09-26T01:32:00.003+08:00

watched this movie "FAME"..
it was good, even tho abit draggy.
they should have showcase more dancing and all.
Bah, and ASHER BOOK(MARCO) has the sweetest voice.
you should listen to his song "TRY", youtube it!
or hear it at my blog music. hoho :)
niceee~ overall, its good. hahahha.

500 days of summer looks interesting.
i still have time's travellers wife, ugly truth.
but oh well, haha, i can always catch some online.
*grinsss.

im finding it hard to sleep now.
now, i don't know what to do.

if i say you're the one, would you believe me?

2009-09-25T00:02:00.000+08:00

i miss...
i rinduu..
wo hen xiang..

you,my dearest boy ):

sigh.

2009-09-23T15:01:00.002+08:00

alrights! im trying to change the boxes and all..
but currently i have no inspiration on what to do about it.
so i'll leave it this way till i know what to do with it.
so many boxes is making me a headache just looking at my blog.
i like the banner, the girl's expression is just perfect.
my background's cute. haha.

enough said. like finally my hair has grown an inch i think.
lol! but oh well, i want it long back. still like 3597235 mths to wait.
bleagh, such a sucky feeling.
just keep quiet.

anyway, since blog is changed.
now i have to think of what to do for the rest of the day.
there's nth interesting in the jobs ad tho.
what can be worse.

Sum 41 - with me

2009-09-17T23:50:00.003+08:00

I totally have THAT song stuck on my head now.
Just plainly nice song :)

thats a wrap.

Alice in the wonderrrlannd.

2009-09-13T01:18:00.004+08:00

have you ever wonder why you give all your might in one thing you want so badly.
have you ever wonder what's gonna happen once you are committed to something.
have you ever wonder that things can change just like that without you knowing.
have you ever wonder why you always feel frustrated for something so small.
have you ever wonder why do you trust so much in a person in few months.
have you ever wonder what that cute boy does to make your heart beat even if you don't know him.
have you ever wonder what your future gonna be like.

just a whole loads of wondering.

fourth month (:

2009-09-07T00:20:00.004+08:00

its the fourth month today.
and time really flies.

being with you is like being given a precious treasure,
and knowing that I get to keep it for the rest of my life.
you make me smile, brighten my day and warm my heart.

i love you, sayang.
xoxo :)

MIA enough tho.

2009-08-30T17:40:00.002+08:00

well, it seems pretty much that i have not been touching my blog.
hahah. nothing left to be updated, just spending life as what it has always been.
FOR good news, im gonna get my ass off to quit my job.

i have been thinking alot.
i have missed alot in my frens life.
im just being preoccupied with things in my mind.
i just found out joyce going back to sch, faeza sign up for sch alr.
and maybe some other stuffs im missing behind, who knows.

i miss sleepovers, chalets and more.
but its kinda hard once you have working life.
eventho, im not having a proper one.
but i miss being a student. a kid, a teenager.
who will just have fun in life, no worries of stuffs.
I for one thing am not ready for adult world..
but do I have a choice?

so what do I do now, that im still thinking.
but the real deal here is, what do I really want.
that's one thing for sure, I have not yet to know.
and its been bothering me what I want to do forever.

oh! FYI, today's dreams was extremely painfully,
i woke up feeling sad.

Dempsey Rd

2009-08-19T23:35:00.001+08:00

I skip work today, hahah.
Because im sick of the work.
AND I was on a mission with Maria Huns.
so, after that little mission, we went to B&J Dempsey Rd.
and believe or not, we, maria and me, for like 20 and 21 years respectively,
we have not set foot in there before. HAH! and boy, the place was cool shit.
relaxing outside, with the swing, ended up reaching at 5plus, leaving at 7.30pm.
it felt like we were long there. hahaa, alot of stupid things happen.
like my camera backflip and the camera took the ceiling, i hit the swing's metal.
i saw a blue mini cooper and i went excited, i didn't think what i was doing,
i accidentally did something to maria. rofl. it was a fun day tho!
thanks huns for the belated B&J bday treat(:
pictures can be seen on my FB, hehs.

two more days, and im excited! rofl. really la (:

irritated, tired, what more can I say.

2009-08-18T21:13:00.005+08:00

I'm just tired.
I don't know what to do already.
all I can do is pray.

you have no idea how tough it is.
I don't want to whine much here.
goodbye.

changesss.

2009-08-16T20:10:00.002+08:00

and YES!
i've cut it short..
short bob, eventho, i was sooo contemplating not to cut it yesterday.
in the end i still did it, why, bcoz faeza say try it. and me with my itching-ness.
people support, i tried lor. -_-" and so the woman goes chop chop my hair~
im like bahhhhhh~
there goes my erm how many gazillion months of hair kept.
hahaha, oh well, like faeza say's hair grows...
BUT the waiting is so freakking looong!
It's been a while since i have short hair :/

i wanted to try the gomez style, but it turned out abit diff.
maria says cute, i think NOT. lol!!
now, grow faster faster! (:
sorry love, i still went and cut my hair. Haha, despite you not wanting to.
you know i'm rebellious and yah. Lol!

PLEASE make friday faster BECAUSE, i dont wanna suffer work.
AND I want this weekends to come faster. hehs.
I'm sure I wont enjoy work tml.
So its gonna be MONDAY BLUES BLUES BLUES BLUES BLUES X INFINITY.
sigh.

falling head over heels(:

5 days, 7 days.

2009-08-13T23:30:00.001+08:00

okay, by right I dont wanna blog.
but by left, im itching too. HAHAH!
oh well, about work, never ending complains.
i shan't say it. hahaha. just that im gonna rot tml again.
i dont care, monday then i start serious work.
so next week, im gonna have a real bad week.
until friday, when i look forward to see my boy! hahaha.
gah! tak sabar-ing. lol! ((:

spent stoning and listening to JEFF DUNHAM on my iPod today.
I was laughing like mad silently at work. haha, coz its hilarious.
even if I watched it a million times. haha.
I LOVE PEANUT! freaking cuteee! ngeeyoww~ hehs.

and I know, that every night after work, I anticipate to talk to sayangg.
lucky he can tap that wireless over there. haha.
because talking to him at least makes my day abit better.
besides the rest laa.. haha.

oh and tomorrow will be IKEA day for me and mariaaa((:
so yeap, that will be all.

my only one(:

flyoff.

2009-08-10T21:00:00.001+08:00

went to send him off around noon with his mom and sister.
woke up early to meet him and off to his house. haha.
the journey, you wouldnt want to know. hahaa

so far after he flew off, it was okay.
i was used to him being away.so im like not feeling it. haha
but when i reach home, the thoughts of not being able to talk or msg him,
haha, damn it really hurts me. idk. LOL! dont laugh okay.
just feeling this heavy pain in my heart. guess im missing him that much.
and yes im independent, being 20years w/o him. of coz this i can survive.
but i cant msg him when im bored at work. i cant call him at night to hear him.
and this will continue till 21august ):
can time just move faster?

i did told him im gonna be okay.but i wasnt i guess.
haha, and i thought i was strong enough.
maybe i am, but i just did not control la. lol!
and love, if you manage to read this there,
im missing you terrible-ly now. and its only been 7hrs.
just having the thoughts of you being at kelantan,its just gah! haha.
weird I know. hais. and the thought of working tml.
worse! hahah, booo, i hate working there. gosh.

SO THEREFORE, ONLY ONE THING TO LOOK FORWARD:
DATE : 21 AUGUST 2009
TIME : 8.25PM
VENUE : TERMINAL 2 AIRPORT

so sayangg, take care over there, have fun reading your books.
rotting there and all. hahaha, be safe, drink plenty of water..
try not to fall sick, and remember i'll be awaiting for your return!(:

and as i promise, i'll be the first thing you see when you step out of the airport gate.

p/s:i miss you loads, cause i love you loads too.

third monthsary

2009-08-07T23:59:00.000+08:00

Thank you for this moment
I've gotta say how ___ you are
Of all the hopes and dreams I could have prayed for
Here you are

If I could have one dance forever
I would take you by the hand
Tonight it's you and I together
I'm so glad I'm your girl
And if I lived a thousand years
You know I never could explain
The way I lost my heart to you
that day

but if destiny decided I should look the other way
then the world would never know
the greatest story ever told
and did I tell you that I love you
tonight

- Greatest story ever told, OLIVER JAMES

i love this singer and you((:

Happy birthday me

2009-08-02T23:31:00.003+08:00

THANKS ALOT FOR THE WISHES, no particular order tho.

raymond,muz,suhaila,mira,jessica,shirazee,hidayah,asilah,richard,

jeffrey,azmi,zaty,sazlizah,preet,maria,priscilla,faeza,nisa,meiyi,liyana,

ruby,farhadiah,husna,jolyn,maizatul,tommy,audrey,ann,kakak nor,

eeling,arfandi,shuhui,leng,joyce,erny,jewelry,joanne,diniy,nizar,

daoli,qianyu,aida,james,yongliang,tobias,jade,cw,daniel,

weini,zy,alyssa,guang yun,jafni,regina.

Thanks Magnificos Dinare, those who attend the dinner, and for the Big TOFU!
hahaha!cute(: but i know its damn ex lor.so thanks again.

courtesy of richard picture. haha, coz i cant find my cable.

and lastly, thanks sayang!(:

so at last im alr 21,pfht! Lol!

sleeepygirl

2009-07-30T22:05:00.001+08:00

feel like blogging before i head to bed.
BUT
i have not a clue what to blog. soooooo

GOODNIGHT! (:

Last week of july.

2009-07-26T22:22:00.000+08:00

Hello Hellooooo.
nyahhaa, okay im here to update yet another week of err *blank*.
another week of working(insert a dreadful sound) till the next weekends.
and OH! did you know, i forgot that next week is my big day.
being reminded by bf that is, its so freaking fast ehh.
honestly, i didnt expect to be next week seh.
bahh, 21 years old. shrugs. hahaha.

alrights, now its like only 10.18pm, im already sleepy.
go figure aite. idk why im slping early and earlier.
tml gonna wake at 4.30am to fast. yeap!
so after the calling of him, im gonna doze off to lala land(:

new songs, new radio programmes. im so gonna catch it tml.
see whats new on radio, its been gazillion months since i tuned in.
(random saying tho,hehs)

and yah!
shoutout to maria, when are we going to DEMPSY HILL/road for ben and jerry??
i so wanna go there, cepat bawak me. hahah(:
hao, that will be all for today!

Unbelievable

2009-07-23T21:37:00.001+08:00

Always said I would know where to find love,

Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough,

But some times I just felt I could give up.

But you came and changed my whole world now,

I'm somewhere I've never been before.

Now I see, what love means.

It's so unbelievable,

And I don't want to let it go,

Something so beautiful,

Flowing down like a waterfall.

I feel like you've always been,

Forever a part of me.

And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,

Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.

In my heart, in my head, it's so clear now,

Hold my hand you've got nothing to fear now,

I was lost and you've rescued me some how.

I'm alive, I'm in love you complete me,

And I've never been here before.

Now I see, what love means.

When I think of what I have, and this chance I nearly lost,

I cant help but break down, and cry.

Ohh yeah, break down and cry.

Now I see, what love means.

One of my favourite song back then. i loveee it(:

craig david is just awesome.

random facts

2009-07-20T23:38:00.001+08:00

i wish you were here next to me..

so i could tell you how much i love youuu.

p/s:i have to stop being so cheesy((:

Your Call

2009-07-19T20:50:00.001+08:00

Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry

Call I'm desperate for your voice

Listening to the song we used to sing

In the car, do you remember

Butterfly, Early Summer

It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet

I was born to tell you I love you

And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine

Stay with me tonight

Gah, tml will be another week of work.

i really feel that my this temp job is like my attachment period, which is so gahhhh. lol

today was spend a day for myself. recap-ping harry potter last book.

another week of train smashing full of people.and maybe meeting maria after work.

maria gonna start work tml also. best of luck huns!(:

soon all will be busy. its like 20th of JULY. gonna end soon the mth of july.

AND! alot of nice movie are really coming up. during aug-nov.

movie marathon then! hahaha. alrights! i wanna finish up the book, hehs.

fyi,forever you & i(:

Hot hot hottt.

2009-07-17T15:19:00.003+08:00

Like OMG, this david henrie grew up so much. hahaha.

FYI, he's from wizard of waverly place elder brother, Justin.

He may be a geek, but geeks are cool. hahaha..

hot hot la he, lalala.. Lol!

another hotie is Aaron johnson. gahhh! lol.

well, i dont want to talk about work. just let it poof!

haha, its only been what, 3 days i work there. haha

and can I survive 6mths there? let's just see.

i really truly miss staying at home and talking nonsense with maria dearest. ):

if only i can online during work, but govt sector, i doubt so.

haha. alrights nth to blog tho, jus updating it. adios(:

meanwhile you ppl, take care!

last day rotting at home.

2009-07-13T21:51:00.004+08:00

one thing that caught my eye about this picture...
is the freaking shoe. gahhh, so nice.. hahaha.
im still aiming for that adidas high cut shoe,
which cost like 119 if i still remember that is. LOL!
okay that is a want, not a need,
so its not that important to me now.. hehs.

last day rotting at home before i start working.
tml will be the jam packing of humans at train.
double siansation. OMG! give me patience man.
really, really rot, till i have nothing to do..
all i did was tweet, facebook and prepare for tml.
and just when im so enthu of fasting tml, i cant. bahhh! hahha hopefully i can msn during work. haha, so i wont be sooo bored! lalala.. okay, i have no idea what to blog,i was just bored. so yeap, here it is. 6months of data entry. helllooo WDA! (:

2009-07-12T04:00:00.003+08:00

Hellllooooo people.
oh yeah,the current news is i got the job,
which is data entry for WDA for 6mths..
this job will last me till january 2010.
received another call in the morning, skali that job is better.
oh bollus, its always like that. hahaha.
thinking, its still far from now, july and work starts on tuesday.
im effieling scared. haha! shrugs.

i think i will be missing him so much..
since im working and he is on confinement.
hope time just move fast to weekends then now. lol!
booo. time to slp. coz its 4am, i repeat eh, 4AM! haha. (:

so fast and its mid july, zomg, a few weeks and im turning 21.
GAH! nooo, i dont want. hahaha!

random-nism

2009-07-09T16:36:00.000+08:00

if our lives have been planned for us,
why is it that we still have to make our own choices?

next interview : 9.45am friday at raffles place.

2nd monthsary

2009-07-07T00:00:00.001+08:00

this is a story of a boy and a girl.

1st of march was the day that they both havent seen for a long long, way freaking long time you can possibly imagine, rofl. And they werent exactly close or anything ACTUALLY. Okay on with the story. As the boy was craving for something called "the strawberry shortcake", the girl decided to just bring him to the shop "Bakerzin" to let him have a taste of his first ever strawberry shortcake. and it was not nice. haha. so her bad for going there. she shld have brought him to NYP one.

actually i dont see why im telling this story.
haha. but i jus wanna share(:

continue:
then when one random sms pops up, it leads to another, they got close and things happen here and there, up and down, left and right. hence, one day out after another day out, eversince then, the girl worries. Therefore she soon talks it out with the boy. Actually everything was mutual understanding. BUT! she loves to tease that boy coz its fun. and yah, thats when it happened. and this girl will like to say something to him.

before you came, everything was so bleargh...
you know the story..bcoz i told so. hahaha.
and when we got close, i nvr tot that you can wriggle ur way out of the problem. indeed it was tough for the both of us. but somehow, im glad that things work out, for if i were to miss what we are having now, i think it will be insane. eversince, you never fail to make me laugh and smile with your ever cuteness of belo-ness and slegeness. haha, every bit of you always make me love you more and more.i never felt any happier being by your side everytime we are together. and i love that we can sit in the silence together and know that silence is okay. good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome, they say the right person will still think the sun shines out of you and thats the kind of person thats worth sticking with. and im sure that you are worth so im making sure you stick to me. lol . i like the way you make me feel even when you're nowhere near me. AND i can read you easily, therefore you're my favourite book. in conclusion, i met a boy. he stole my heart.... and wont give it back. i live for little moments, like that.THANKS a BUNCH for everything arfandi(:
happy 2nd month. ilysm.

you know im talking about us now.you & me,just us.

p/s: i have no idea why i blog this, but it maybe bcoz i love him.
and i find our story cute. HAHA

2009-07-06T16:21:00.001+08:00

and with a blink of eye.... *_*(suppose to be eyes close, i guess this is closed enuff,rofl)
the month of july. seriously, i repeat eh, seriously, its fast.
double, triple, infinity sigh.

im trying to get my resume right.. resume makeover time!
i decided not to apply anymore IT jobs.
i just cant see myself doing this in my career.
cant picture it and definitely wont enjoy doing it.
but how am i not suppose to find a non IT job,
when my freaking resume is full of IT skills ):
tough, i thought so.

entah.. bingung.. ngak tau.
pening la pikir pasal bende ni.

what am i suppose to do.
i've lost my way.

2009-07-05T01:41:00.002+08:00

im feeling errrr....
okay, im having this shitty stomach ache.
erm, plus this heavy head..im sneezing eversince.
i have problem with my insides now...
im trying to drink yakult more..

im tried, but there's this part inside me who doesnt want to slp.
and i dont know why but wo hen xiang ni..
eventho like how many time we meet up alr.
hais. shit. gahh.

stupid pms. hahaaha

2009-07-03T00:20:00.001+08:00

okay.. this is the cubicle we went into at raffles city.
hahaha, maria wanted to upload but she cnt, so i do on behalf of her.
nah maria, gambar ni da kat blog aku. HAHAH!
cool shit right. hahaha. oh! i think its for handicap. so yahh.

yesterday was a day that i've haven felt for long time seh.
go crazy everywhere we go. talk like some org tak betul.
laughing so loud that people stare at you thinking you are nuts.
i just so love those days when we're like that. hahaha!
mcm our bapak roads everywhere we go.
and i love the fact that maria can go yaya nuts with me. haha.
thats why i love herr. hhahaa

oh, and i had Iced Horlicks Dinosaur just now.
long time since i had HORLICKS!
yum yum yum(:

pray for tml(:

2009-07-01T01:56:00.001+08:00

Hey ho yaaw all! lol!
first post for 1st JULY 2009! time move fast lor. july alr.
it gets me thinking how people endure the patience of finding a job everyday.
hahaa, its not easy uh, rather tiring.. everyday. booo
anyway, hahah. friday gonna have another interview at exceptional pte ltd.
thanks to daniel who intro me the job. like fast seh, i send my resume, then call alr.
hopefully i get uh. coz im darn tired to find jobs alr. like giving up. HAHA
interview 11am, at jurong east there. yet to find how to go there.
if get also, good! coz near. lol! wheeeee..

if you ask me, what do i want to work as.
seriously, i have no answer. remember my plan after i graduated.
not sure if im gonna go for it. you know, my dream as a wedding photographer.
i have not much confidence in my programming skills.
so what if i helped alot of people for projects. because i solved my errors myself.
therefore i know what to do alr. programming is so not me seh.
my passion, as photographer since sec 5, i donnoe where it has gone to.
kinda hard..hais. i dont know. for now, maybe just getting whatever job is important.
rather than rotting at home..okay enuogh emoing.

tomorrow, gonna shop for shoes and clothes for interview.
just another pair of formal clothes. mom say to collect money from dad. hahah!
i wanna buy high heels! haha. going with maria maria~

im tired! goodnights!

i live for moments, like this.

2009-06-28T23:30:00.008+08:00

Missed me?! hahaha
guess not. been busy alot, with my sis engagement.
today ends. hahaha, my sole is freaking tired. im aching all over.
hahaha. thats why im MIA nowadays. lol.
and boy, when i open my blog, rare ppl tags. Lol!

Friday watched transformers! i love shia. haha.
and of course the company. hees.

im pretty much shag,
i wanted to end early today as in slp early.
i guess everyone in the family is...turning in pretty soon after this.

my cute anak sedaraaa~

but after the tiredness and all, this boy always makes me feel energetic.
im glad i went to meet you today eventho for jus one hr.
i just love you so much, cheesy huh?
haha, but hey, u'll understand one day. or alr have. lol!
the warmth and cozy, secure feeling, i can really feel you.
rest assure, now, i wont think anymore. ily whole heartedly(:
this boy is of course Mr A.

2009-06-22T02:36:00.004+08:00

i miss you mr arfandi!
and my throat hurts, rawr!

bye!

2009-06-17T16:38:00.003+08:00

oh oh! this week, i've been a good girl.
haha, dont know what came over me..
but i started to vacuum the whole house, everyday..
yes, EVERYDAY. applied some jobs again as usual.
how i wish poly years haven ended yet. its the most fun part of ur life laaaa.
working life is so dead. lol! trust me, attachment period was hell. lol!

okay, so i was dead bored. then i stumbled across this.
ok, but i change the friday part. hahahhaa. oh heck.
i want to dedicate this to maria can. Lol!

monday: i miss you.
tuesday: i miss you so much.
wednesday: i miss you even more.
thursday: i'm missing you terribly :(
friday: one day less to saturday!(:

*jumps like a kid who gets ice cream when she already throw tantrum
while smiling like the happiest kid in town. HAHA

seriously not her only la. maybe this girl here also. Lol.
and sooooo, im gonna be honest and say im missing you dearly.
tho, im controlling it. hahaha. pfht, but what to doo. hahah
its nearing 5pm, guess time really move fast today..
faster get over with your one-week-do-nothing-lepak-always-kinda duty!
cause i know you are dreading there. haha..
OH! Helping momsy with cooking spaghetti soon!(:

oh! did i mention? i just adore and love this people!

Maria HUNS, adorable gf of meee(:
(p/s: please ignore my face.Lol!)

AND

this awesome to the max cool shit bomb boy of mine!
okay, sorry i never ask your permission to post this pic of yours.
but i dont careeee~ lol!

you, we and everything; just nice. ily.

2009-06-12T01:00:00.002+08:00

there's been like so much drama going on now.
I repeat..so much drama going on. hahaha.
okay not much la. still can count. gahhh
like yahhhhhhhhhh.

hey, why izit so hard for me to communicate with you now.
its like we dont understand each other anymore..
like our frequency or level of thinking and thoughts are way off.
i feel sad and terrible, how we turn out to be right now.
indeed i still care for you, no doubt..
im trying my very best to be there for you..
to understand..im trying to help really,
but im worried and even scared i might just hurt you more.
i think i just need to meet you up and explain the whole thing to you.
but in order for me to help you, you have to help yourself first.
and i apologise if i haven been really there for you..

~~one, im truly feeling guilty..~~
~~two, i feel sad for boyfie..~~
~~three, idk what to do about all this.~~
~~four, i need a job..~~
~~five, i miss you..~~

sometimes i wonder, if i nvr step into your life.
all this complicated things, okay not so complicated..
but all this things, wouldnt have happened right..
about that thing and this, bullshitty thingy. LOL
and you'll totally kill me if you read this. HAHA.

BUT, i have never ever regretted having you in my circle.
never ever, trust me(: because you make me smile.
the end.

2009-06-07T01:59:00.003+08:00

one month(:
as simple as that.
just use your imagination okayy!
hehs.

its hard to find a job!
rawr! countless and none.sigh.
toodles(:

what did you do to me? lol!

2009-06-03T01:06:00.005+08:00

today's topic in msn was about attracting..
lol, i went around asking my friends,joyce and zee,
what did he/her partner do to make them like them laa..
haha, its funny how you hear different answers from diff ppl.
lol! i have no idea why i started asking that.. maybe it was that convo.
hahaha, shant say more but yeahh..

what's in my mind is the question.
but whatever it is, im sure it will just be gone.
that's me, yay me! hahahha

anyways, good luck to maria for her interview at 11am.
and to me at 4.30pm. im so scared. HAHAHHA!
sheesh(:

greatest story told - oliver james(:

2009-06-02T10:21:00.003+08:00

like omg omg omg omg omg omg!
when yesterday i was complaining no job wants me..
i got a morning or rather wake up call from the company A*Star~
hahaa! i applied the web designer/developer job at 19 may..
now is 2 june! hahaha.. took so long, okay no. maybe its standard..
hahhhaha..tml is the interview at 4.15pm..so me and maria both have interview tml.
heng the location of interview is a walking distance from commonwealth mrt.
i hope i wont get lost....
AND! i realise, i dont have a passport size photo. -.-"
have to take later for the application form.

its like scary shit man..
like now its the real thing interview..
not the mock interview i had during comm skills with zee's company.
that is like different sehhh.. im bloody nervous till my hands is still shaking!
hah! omggg...i better start preparing for tml's stuff! hahahha.

wish me luck. pffht!

2009-06-02T00:40:00.003+08:00

i loike this picture.
i dedicate it to maria tho. hahahaha

come to think of it..
its the month of june, half a year gone.
another half a year to go...
and in 2mths time, i'll be like 21.
my god.. so fast. -.-
still no luck in finding jobs. apply, apply,apply..
nothing. gahhh, so hard. and im bored of staying home.
sick and tired.. i feel like going back and study...
ugh, sucks. im gonna hit the sack.. bcoz if i stay up more.
i'll just die of doing nothing. and im all dried up. tough month..

goodnights(:

2009-06-01T01:57:00.001+08:00

way freaking sleepy.
but i just dont wanna slp.
shrugs....

was just thinking..
thinking.. not good.

ah crap.

2009-05-27T17:47:00.002+08:00

Two more days and its graduation day.
im not feeling excited.
im not feeling enthusiastic.
im feeling nothing.

i thought graduation day is meant to be "HURRAY".
but i guess, my graduation mood was over.
the mood was when exam was finally over, which is since February.

now im dreading to goooooooo~
maybe because have to bring that robe,
and and all the procedure of it.
-_-" im weird. gahhhhhhh.

but of course, im still excited to take pics with them!(:
however leng will not be with us ):
drop by okay leng. we will call-ing youuu!

im craving for Chocolate Cream Chip BIG TIME!
im so gonna grab one on friday!weee!
weeks at home have been horrible. im getting bored!
coz none of the job i applied, even call me. NOT one.
booooo ):

there's only 1 thing, 2 say, 3 words, 4 you(:

2009-05-21T11:48:00.002+08:00

Happy 21st Birthday DARLING!
I love you many2 okay!
whatever i do, or scold, you know its for your own good!
hahaha..enjoy this day even if its just small.
and grow up! haha(:
much lovelies,nana

2009-05-20T17:05:00.002+08:00

oh! did i mention i cut my hair bangs. -_-"
i hate it so i slant it, and i look like some kid with short fringe but long hair.
and and not to mention my graduation is next week!
grow faster can. booooooo~
all faeza fault ask me to cut like that. HAHA! :x

and i think im getting fatter, eventho im losing weight.
go figure. lol!

i miss my long fringe. period ):

2009-05-18T01:24:00.002+08:00

Why the hell when a friend needs someone to confide in,
i end up scolding and lecturing the person..
rather than consoling her when things are getting bad..
im like saying both of them are being unreasonable..
making things worse for her..shit, fuck shit.
im a terrible friend right. and now i donnoe what to do ):
speechless when she just say thanx aniway~

sigh, i just wanted to teach her to be more independent
and not letting ppl run her down with such words when she did alot.
im just angry. coz i can never teach her that. and disappointed with myself.
another ):

so,ineedyou.
sorry.

and oh, im home.

2009-05-14T20:59:00.001+08:00

Nana wont be at home till sunday alrights!
contact through phone if emergency(:

Peace yaww!

2009-05-10T23:29:00.004+08:00

time moves way too fast.
i wish i can just pause, rewind and play the days.
the past one week was fruitful and simply nice..
im so thankful, ily(:

HAPPY MOMSY DAY!

2009-05-08T01:27:00.002+08:00

coping yourself in house..
leads me to bring back memories from poly.
from year 1 to yr 3..sigh, i miss the days we skip lecture..
to go for early lunch, or just sleep at library..
the days that we celebrated each birthdays..
gahhh, our chalet. i want another chalet ):

im scared of the future,
i thot i knew what i wanted..
i guess now, i dont.

2009-05-04T16:29:00.002+08:00

its funny if how i see things going on..
many unpredictable things may just happen.
without the slightest notice of you knowing yourself..
when it comes this far, would you turn around and ignore?

i miss exco days ):
funny right..
the sleep in the CR with our slping bags..
the drama inside, almost everything..
especially escaping from FYP to go and just slack thr.
haha.

2009-05-01T01:46:00.003+08:00

-Jolerina Toss-

-The four polaroids each of us have(:-

eh, you 3, must thank me for the polaroids hor..
lucky i never charge 1dollar for each. hahah!
other pictures will be uploaded in Facebook(:
goodnights..*yawnns*

2009-04-30T12:20:00.004+08:00

"have you ever had this feeling of weirdness in you..
and likewise you are afraid to move from where you are..
because you are scared that you will lose this person.."

there's alot of dates that im pretty excited..
i cant wait for the slpover plus oreo cheesecake baking..
i cant wait for another jogging session..
i cant wait for dinner later!
i cant wait for her 21st birthday..
and mostly i cant wait to organise cycling..
and overniting at beach with sec sch peeps..
i will definitely screw my otak and think of a date to bring us back tgt.
we have like 3yrs of catching up to do..

but..nothing beats of me being excited of that. hoho(:
and i blog because im bored..so be it(:

2009-04-28T20:43:00.001+08:00

i wish..i wish...i wish....
i just wishh..........

2009-04-26T21:59:00.002+08:00

WOOOOOOO!
im dead beat after that jogging.
i think we like jog plus walk like more than 3.6km!
like from yew tee to cck and back to yew tee.
from 7 plus to 9 plus... wow!
hahaha(:

tml confirm aching...
yay! i am so excited(:
laaaaaaa...

okay bye!

2009-04-26T14:50:00.003+08:00

It seems like my job hunting is unsuccessful!
hmph! hahaha... nvm, later tonight find again..
i need one badly ):
AND today dreamt of getting NTU letter again..
GOSH! gahhhhhhhh~ hahahaha. making me -________-"

Yesterday off to Pasir Ris park with girlie.. hhaha.
sick of shopping malls in s'pore, so we decided to hit the park(:
pictures was uploaded at FB. so yahhh..
Gonna have jogging day session with faeza soon later..
hahah, i wanna jog jog jog jog jog, so long. lalala...
so bored of going out when u have nowhere to go...

boy , i wanna catch 17 AGAIN!
Friday go watch if its still in cinemas okay!
lalala(:

2009-04-24T12:33:00.004+08:00

Red Psp, hahah!
i think this will be next on my list.
Lalala, even if im a bit outdated, but...
i so wanna play laaaaaa!
My next gadget of the year(:

AND i dreamt that i got accepted to NTU.
-____________________-"
hahaha. damn i hate waiting. sigh...

2009-04-22T01:05:00.004+08:00

come to think of it..
what happens if i can never get to UNI.
i have to start work alr. booo~
and i think, i dont want to work as a programmer..
and when will either the letter of acceptance or rejection come??
grrrr, so tired of thinking about it. haha.
im currently scrolling thru part time jobs. zzzzz!

but if i dont work as programmer,
then my sweat and everything i studied in poly goes down the drain.
then how? you tell me how? when im not even confident in my own knowlegde.
): i saw this tcher assistant/librarian/admin assistant job ad,
i think i just wanna try that for part time. will send out my resume in morning.
i applied for PHP web programmer and the trainee photographer job tooo..
now just have to wait for calls. bleagh..
i cant even make decisions of what i want.
all i know is i want to be photographer that badly. and im alr turning 21 soon.
):

im loving my blue ADIDAS lanyard(:

2009-04-20T00:15:00.004+08:00

oh what the heck,
i didnt know what to do now, so i was reading this past blog entries.
hahaha, and boy, when i read, i was like,hold on a minute, did i write all this.
and thinking now, how come i can never write like how i use to.
full of emotions and feelings. haha, maybe i've lost touch of it.
if my post in this blog is getting really boring, i might just not update at all.
hahahahhaha, *shrugs.

but yah, the reason im blogging is yah, boredom.
pfhtt. such an irritating feeling lor.
i wish that there's something for me to do.
hahaha, frens all working, none to go out with.
go out = money, and my money is decreasing. lol!

and to why i start blogging again?
idk. lol! Because, maybe i've been blogging since sec sch,
not use to not blogging. hahah!
MAYBE.

been hooked to HARPER'S ISLAND..
haha, a killing kinda of show, just 13 episode.
and you have no clue who the killer is. like SCREAM. haha
boy, i hate that movie. lol.

till then, good day(:

2009-04-14T00:55:00.002+08:00

receive a call,
about some chalet.
now she doesnt want to go.
should i go? sians..

at least, if i go, can enjoy and make time go by faster.
LOL! been sneezing since saturday, like random sneeze.
when it's not even cold. Hoho! someone missing me? lol..
pfffhtt! i want balloons! colorful and many! lalala...

what is this feeling im feeling?

2009-04-12T23:55:00.003+08:00

whheee~
bought a polaroid,
for just usage of special occasion.
and if i want to. Hoho! Yay, finally got my own toy to use.
lalala..

kinda shop for stuffs i want too.
all is being eliminated from my list.
except for one last thing, my La Capro shoe.
but, i cant. lol. kinda spend enough already.
thanks girl for going out and spending time with me.
next time your turn and NO i wont carry your stuffs.
nyahahaha. hope your MAT get well soon eh..(:

got alot of dinner dates to go,
one jolerina, one faeza. okay not alot.
but its gonna burn my pocket. hahaha!
kinda need a job. hope can find one tho.

what am I gonna do tml, thats the question.

so missing you.

2009-04-10T12:34:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was absolute fun,
and a nice hanging out day.
Pretty much enjoyed the time.
Thanks boy(:

unbelievable true.

2009-04-07T20:25:00.002+08:00

Happiness is like thin ice.
It can break anytime tho.

Being friends with you,
is like being given a precious treasure,
and knowing that i get to keep it for the rest of my life.
you make me smile..brighten my day and warm my heart.

i want many many balloons(:

2009-04-05T23:23:00.003+08:00

i was super bored today,
so at 12plus, i went to ask my dear faeza out.
haha, been long since we've met, nvr change at all,
still the same old her. hahah.
bump into richard at marina. luckily. LOL!
*hint,hint* (: richard shhhh!

talked and updated her on stuffs..
topic of the day was all our frens. hahah.
at that point of time, i missed her,
how we used to joke each other and stuffs.
hahah, i guess we just have to pull the strings more.
more meet ups aite! (:
next stop will be cycling with faeza and dayah okay!
make dates alrights(:

gahh,irinduyou.

2009-04-05T11:12:00.003+08:00

I seriously thought that i wanted to really close this down.
but i kinda miss blogging here..
and ppl ask when am i gonna revive my blog back.
hahaha. so yeap.. here it is alive again.
but i will be darn speechless on what to blog tho.

since im away, many things have been happening.
good or bad,
happiness or sadness,
funny or not. lol!
but im pretty much contented and pretty happy with my life now.
trying not to emo as much as the last time.
because i see no point in it.(:

i want to be the carefree, bubbly, happy nana i used to be.

you make it easy,
as easy, as 1,2,1,2,3,4.
be my rainbow after the rain(:

2009-04-04T21:04:00.001+08:00

temporary layout before i do a new one.(:
i declare this blog open again.
so if you happen to come across here,
then tadaa~
its kicking and alive! hehs.

will blog more soon(:

2009-01-30T15:53:00.002+08:00

WHOOOOOOO!
currently mugging, so i wont be blogging much(:
stay tune for more updates to come! (:
happy mugging to yr 3 students(:
and strive this hurdle!
im.missing.you.peeps):

2009-01-14T13:04:00.001+08:00

NIKON FM10.
i've been eyeing this camera eversince i saw it in the shop.
It cost SGD$590. its vintage right. haha. it uses film eh.
i so like the silver coating. saving up! (:

*twirls around getting excited. hehe

2008-12-28T00:32:00.003+08:00

i need a break ):
empty
empty
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empty
empty
empty
empty
empty

goodbye.

2008-12-23T13:14:00.002+08:00

Happy 20th Birthday KIDDO!
Stay cute and happy always ya.
much love(:

2008-12-21T00:52:00.003+08:00

tired of looking at errors.
COUNTLESS!

alot of things not done,
this function, that function.
things not working properly.
sick of PHP or J2EE...
need to finish at least 85% of all the projects before sch starts.
ICT have yet to touch.
ITSM presentation lab yet to touch.
Mock Interview yet to prepare.
and other projects.
PLUS i need to shop for formal clothes.
thinking of all this can jus give me a headache lor.

Next week, alot of things going on.
I'm not sure I will go, seeing the progress of my project.
24/12 : Xmas
27/12 : Cycling
28/12 : Leng Chalet
Minus off that, and im left with 5 more days.
including today. im feeling the stress already.
im sure leng also. haha. right? :/

fuhhh, i miss my friends :(

anyhoos.....

happy 26th Birthday sis!
when is the wedding bell. HAHAHA!
stay happy! much lovelies(:

2008-12-18T21:18:00.004+08:00

Caught that with joyce and maria today.
Like finally 18 DEC came. hahaha.
I give this show two thumbs up and two toes up.
hehehe. the theatre was full, and full of sqilling girls.
especially when the part Edward wore the sunglass ->

they were practically going ahhh. LOL.
okay, he's hot stuff but I wont go gaga like them.
hahaha! and maria, this things dont exist, so stop dreaming.
nyahahha, just kidding girl. oh yah he's from harry potter.
cedric diggery. (:

catch it guys. now i feel like reading the book.
HURHUR (:

2008-12-13T23:26:00.002+08:00

here I am, with nothing to do.
Rotting at home today.
played guitar heroes in the morning.
turning the house upside down. LOL
have to start planning what to do next for projs.
booo~

Random-ness:
Know what is the worst feeling in the world? It’s when there’s a problem, but you don’t know what’s the cause. The source. The reason. The theory behind it all. And you don’t know if the problem lies with you, or something else. It eats you up inside like maggots to a corpse, all you can do is try to breathe, but after awhile you start to feel so suffocated you want to die. Just die. You feel a certain kind of motion sickness, those far worse than being made to sit in a jerking, moving, rocking bus with your eyes stuck on a PSP console. The kind where you want to throw up your lunch but it doesn’t work, because it’s not the food that’s making you ill. Even crying, which could be an easy outlet, seems impossible, because you don’t know what to feel sad about, although in any second now, you might just burst out in tears and when that happens, it’s going to take you ages to finally stop. You want to know what it is that suddenly just comes and whacks you hard on the head when everything was just fine before, but you can’t know, because you won’t be let known what it is. No point telling others when they ask, because hey guess what, you don’t know why there’s a problem, so how can you explain it? Yeah.

but things will never change.
its so not over.

2008-12-12T00:00:00.000+08:00

Happy 23rd Birthday sister!
stay happy. much loves(:

2008-12-11T00:09:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday mamaku!
much lovelies(:

anyway, today was spent by watching
the miss no good/campus shrewd drama.
introduced by goh eeling. hahaha
watched till last episode.
instead of studying :X

Hu hu...lol!

2008-12-09T01:01:00.003+08:00

Omg, haha. ICT can kill brain cells.
LOL. okay im exaggerating. but its like bamm,
tiring. haha i studied like from morning till now.
paper is like at 4.30pm tml.
so far, i've gotten tut 1 to 4(some).
hopefully tml i wake up, can memorise the leftovers.
and will be down to OS paper. (:
and then project time. geeez.

off to bed now.
lucks to all~

2008-12-06T01:19:00.003+08:00

deep down,
she wish that things never happened they way it had now.
but when things just gets so inevitable,
was it a mistake she made that she just realised only now...?

suddenly i miss everything.
i think being 3 yrs in nyp, have given me many memories.
and great frens. some friendship is lost, while some grow stronger.

to clarify, i dont emo everyday.
im just sad, sad of what shit also i dont know.
the feeling of this, it just stays inside of me.
never wanting to go away no matter what.
i know, always look on the bright side and thrs other worse than me.
but, hey, this is my life. i feel sad, happy or angry. its me, my life.

its hard when you want to say everything out
but also dont want to worry your frens if you dont feel good.
izit something wrong if i write how i feel.
dont get me wrong, im not mad or what.
im just clarifying that im not emoing :)

and, i dont get it if some1 can get what they want with a snap of finger.
while others, they persevere, and do other stuff, it doesnt fall to what they want.
i guess, life is like that. sometimes, when even things are going smoothly,
it can just be gone with a nick of time.

im really missing some stuffs in my life.
miss big time.
geez. and come to think of it.
i cant remember when was the last time,
i really smiled a happy smile.

anyhoos, wrote alot today,
Common test on the way,
no mood study ICT, coz it is a hell lot to remember!
boooo. Then after that projects, EVERYTHING!
update while i can. goodbye.

2008-11-30T14:53:00.005+08:00

all i did was try to help.
whatever lah.
blogging will be rarely now.
i will be back when im better.
plus, might be busy with sch,
wont be joining much activities then.

eversince, tears rolled uncontrollably. she lost control of her emotions.every single thing she can just tear ):